Ever since i came to Tasmania, i never been so emo, or down like now before. I don't know what i should say. I just feel so speechless over the matter just happened these days. I don't know is it my problem? or i'm just being so unfortunate to make things happened?
Recently i recall what happened to me last year, when i was still in Disted. I had some problems with my course mates and at last i had to be alone and sort of being boycot. Fortunately i have my high school friends, which are also my best friends, also my family, to be with me whenever i needed. But now, i came here, Tassie, i thought it would be a new start for me stay away from those bad memory, get some new friends here, create a new network. however, i was wrong!
I really have no idea what had happened recently. we used to be in a big group of 12, but now its like separated into groups. The 10 of them had eventually mix very well and being very close. This is not anything bad. But i'm wondering why me n BH gotta being leave behind? Now they are friends, we are nothing!! When we bumped into each other, they just treated us like stranger. They even attended other friend's party and leave us behind. This seems unusual to me, but i guess they would feel happier without our existence. Maybe we are not valuable? or we are just being so 'unnecessary' in the group?
Human's heart is really unpredictable and scary. they often change without your acknowledgement. Nowadays i have keep myself in the room, not going anywhere if not necessary. I'm not gonna see those situation, however, i couldn't stop myself from thinking. that's why i'm here blogging again. I'm wondering how is the road trip gonna be if this situation remains.
Friday, October 16, 2009
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hey girl, Joo here.
ReplyDeleteok, this is 2nd time trying to write this comment k. pek chek-ing~ lolx.. anyway, I think you got things wrong ler~ Seriously don't think I'm included in the so-called 'group' too. We went to the party upon individual invitation by Xin Long. Doesn't heard anything from them too until we were about to go. Thought of asking u guys one but since we're not the host I'm not sure whether that's the right things to do. So I don't really dare to ask bec if I ask then I can't invite then better don't ask..@@
Anyway, I guess sometimes life are js like that. I told myself to just take it as lessons that life post to us to allow us to learn. Just to let you know u're not the only one who feel ridiculous and alone recently. I haven't been to cafeteria for dinner for more than a week now. Guess it's the same situation. Just doesn't want to see that situation and those ppl. Some of them are giving me faces to see which I SERIOUSLY HATE IT. I seriously don't know what really happened and more importantly, what had I done wrong to deserve treatment like this. I mean..what is F***ing WRONG WITH THESE PPL?!
Anyway, I just figure that since they don't even care why do we have to feel miserable here? Don't feel necessary to communicate with them too bec they don't seem to be in the communicating mood and position. To be more clear, they don't even care to communicate. Then let's just forget bout them and move on with our life. They are not that important afterall. They are not like my employer, families or smth like that now. Consider them as not important. I will always just treat ppl as how they treat me though. They choose to prove themselve as unworthy for my friendship.
There are still a couple of things that u might not come to know bec we didn't exactly keep that close recently. but I am feeling pretty sick bout this so-called 'friendship'. This is also the main reason why I'm considering moving out next year too. It's not bec I'm scared of them. Just feel unnecessary to continue this immature and ridiculous situation. Since I'm not that happy here, why not search for a new and better life out there,right? It's a big world out there! ^^
btw, I'll still be sitting back and see what happened next to them. For one who is able to make small things this big, I doubt they won't have conflict in the future. I never wish ppl bad but I won't wish those ppl good. Sorry for that. but I too feel sorry for those of them who are not wise enough to stay level-headed. Trust me, just relax and watch the show,k?;) There is reali no need to care for those who don't even care.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, just to let you know that I'm still the best fren that you know since 8 years ago k? Remember we recognised each other as no.1 best fren?:) Even though we might not keep as close like last time nowadays but that doesn't affect the fact that you're still my very best fren,k? 8 years friendship aren't fake girl!:p
I am and will always still be the same me. Even though now that you have bh and might be more occupied but you can still find me anytime u feel like so k?
Aiks.. I really dunno what else I was saying d la~ This STUPID BLOG THINGS! grrr.. I was so satisfied with the 1st version and it's soooooooo much more better than this you know..T.T ok la think I'll stop here. cheers for our friendship! :)
Your best fren,
Joo
ps: I'm concern bout the road trip too. lolxx.. Been trying to think of a plan B here, js in case. :p
LOL...well, u remind me something, friends are everywhere. What they did to us today it is not our lost, perhaps, its theirs. Maybe they are the 1st group of friends i met here, that's why they seem so important. However, this proves that they are not. We could survive without them and nothing big deal!
ReplyDeleteBtw, i believe in karma. If someone had do something behind, i bet he wont stay long in the group. we just sit back and wait for the good show.
Btw, i might be moving to Mt. Nelson with bh and zak. But i gotta discuss with my family 1st. really feel pointless staying here to see their face. We do nothing wroong to deserve this kind of treatment.
Ahh!!i'm not sure bout the plan. but i dont think it would be any problem if we come up with plan B, Plan C or even plan D. LOL...less people would have less problem. Hell, i love being out of the group now.
Don't worry girl, you are still my best friend too which i'll keep in heart forever. ;) Cheers~
yo~ xD
ReplyDeleteEhhh, I won't write 1000 words essay as the above one.. Don't worry ahh~~ =P
Well, cut straight to the point. All these while, I follow my principle. I'll treat people how they treat me and whenever got 'discussion', i choose to be neutral.. My blog also got wrote about this matter.. Hahahaxz..
Anyway, is that people who start treating me like that first. So, I choose to treat them back the same. But if they want to talk to me, I'm more than welcome to do the same. I too do not wish to lose friends. But if they make me to do so, then I don't have much choice.
These few days, me too keep myself in the room. Just got no eyes see the situation. Really sick of it. The people keep giving faces to me. Makes me wanna puke. Maybe because they think I side with you guys. Truth is we are both neutral and because of that, we have our right to mix with both sides. If they treating me so because I mix with you guys, then they're just being immature. Bh is one of my buddies here in Tassie, giving me a room to sleep last time (miss those times.. xD) and Ting, you're the one who support and gave advices to me so much when I was depressed last time.
Anyway, you're both one of my best friends and they're also my friends. I'm honoured to have you guys here in Tassie with me this year.. ^^ Anything, you can come find us ok? Cya soon in 5 minutes.. xD
小狮子
Hi Lion...lol...
ReplyDeleteWell, i feel better after talking to you guys last night. Really think that it is nothing so big deal without them! We still the true friends here and those we appreciate as how they appreciate us. 看开了。。。为了这样的人，浪费力气。。。see them so often also feel puke ah...lol...right?
Btw, i want the seaview apartment la!!! i want to stay there la...haihz...
hahaha.. we going to try to get one lah~ by that time u guys can come over if u want ma..:) we got 2 rooms. :p
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