emo-ing

uh huh..now its already 4.25 am, and im still awake!! haha..i had a long nap this afternoon and now im working on some minor assg, so bored of it!!

Finally its time to back to class again! and i hate it!! >.< but i got no choice but to force myself wake up early in the morning!! >.<

Actually, from the very begining, there were something bothering me. Maybe to him, it is not a problem, but he never understand how i feel and look into this issue. Whenever i talked to him about this issue, he would just argue that i am not being understanding. But, did he ever think, I would have grudge that his ex has better relationship with his family than i did!!

During last summer holiday, we were back to malaysia and we could hardly meet as we were staying at different states. SOmetimes i would voiced out to him that i bet his parents do not know who am i, or ever know my existence. Whenever i gave him examples of those friends around us, he would complaint that i never make an effort to visit his house, as his parents doesn't like dependent girl. All right, i had made my effort to visit his parents. So what? His mom was just treating me like a simple friend of him, and he never try to show his mom that im his GF!!

Other than that, during CNY, i tried my best to drive to meet him and plan to pay a visit to his parents. i met him at his grandpa house and i offer him to go to his house to visit his parents, however, he rejected me and claimed that he wants to gamble. WTF!! he was like trying to avoid me from visiting his parents. As he always tell me how important am i to him, and how serious he is treating me, but why i am just being like a strange person and cannot be exposed to his family. I had talked to him about this matter for many times, but everytime he would just show me how disappointed he is in me for not being understanding. Whenever i try to ignore it, sure there will be something to pull me down. He ever told me once, his parents like his ex-L, and even would call her to join for their family gathering dinner during CNY. If this is the way how his family treat his gf, then who am i to his family? and guess what?? His 2nd bro just get to know i am his gf until i add his bro in FB. Funny right?? and his bro is treating his ex so good as obvious as it all proves in FB!!

He always claimed that his parents knew about my existence, but i dont see his mom know me as his gf. Everytime when we talk bout this, we will end up quarrel and have no conclusion on that matter. If his parents really know bout me, why his parents will stop him from coming to pg?? why everytime his mom called, he would just tell her he is with his 'friend' instead of GF?? why he cant visit me on 14/2?? why his mom just ignored me when i visit him at his house?? why he never introduce me to his parents in person?? he will never understand how i feel...