Sleepless nite..@.@

Aikz...its 5.12am right now, uh huh...why i'm up so early???lol...well, i dun even get to sleep yet and im so energetic right now...uhmm....wad to do???had finish browsing facebook and got nothing else to do~~~Help me....what i can do to make me fall asleep????gggrrrr...i wanna sleep!!!

In another 5 hours, me, BH, yan, jia yi, and LJ are hanging out. we planned to go Botanical Garden and Cadbury factory. Now its spring, and botanical gardens are full of flowers, grasses, trees, butterflies, and bees...huh?!?!?! i dun wanna see bees!!! Hopefully there has no bees la...^^ gonna take lots photo in the botanical garden, and buy lots of chocolate from cadbury!!!well, the chocos are 'souvenirs' for friends and relatives!!! I knw i will eat'em...but...kenot lar...kenot eat too much...i have less time d...i need to on diet and put off some weight d!!!! uhmm...besides botanical garden n cadbury factory, we are goin for a 2 days 1 night trip to Bicheno and Wine Glass bay...I can see penguins in the Bicheno...>.< Penguin penguin.....im coming~~wine glass bay got nice scenes and ...i dunno d...hehe..yet to be discovered. I'll share more after i hv been there...k??hehehhee...

My sis wedding coming soon, its on december...but why i'm still so fat?!!?!?i shud cut of my weight now!!!!!LOLXxx...'kan fei'..'kan fei'...'kaannnn feeeeiiiiiiii'!!!!! Im trying to control my diet now, at least i will not eat like a gorilla as i used to for the pass 2 months..lol...really fat like hell....@@.. Cant eat too much after going back to penang...and must do more exercise!!!! twice a day, morning and evening jog!!Who wants to join me???hehehe...i would be happy to hv someone accompanied...hehe...i wonder if i could follow wad i've planned...but pls..i need some support!!! so pls scold me 'si tua pui'...or 'tua pui po'....or 'fatty' when u c me!!! uh huh....ON DIET ON DIET ON DIET!!!!!! Feel so annoyed being so fat..haihz...really wanna kan fei d!!!

Uhmm....goin back home soon...kinda anticipating for it...i miss my car, my bed, my papa n mama...uhmmm....wad i gonna do after back home????

1. dinner with gong gong( 1st priority)
2. visits relatives like mami, sis yong, mai tu, and etc etc...
3. Hangout with friends like mun, peng, fion, n joo..???Y joo???go shopping la...oi Joo...hear me???hehehe
4. Gonna be my gong gong's driver...spend more time with him...missing him..T.T
5. shopping. shop for dresses for my sis wedding..but guess would be in dec, as i need to 'KAN FEI' 1st!!!
6. what's next???daily routine lo...eat,play sleep..???uhuh...no way!! gotta get smtg to do!!! do wad leh????err.....'kan fei!!!!! hehehhee..yayaya....my target!!! on diet!!!

Aikz.....think of wad had happened in the last month really feel so speechless...wonder how could things become like this...everyhthing was fine but end up like tat...over time, i nv feel any lost towards it..just feel like hitting 2 person!!! CB kia!!! Sarcastic person sarcastic faces.....F u idiots...see how does the god will treat u...u will get ur karma soon!!! SOOON.....muahahahhaa.... here, i wanna tell a girl, A....pls wake up la...u r so noob man....n hey, pls dun try to act like an adult as u r not n u r still childish!! how u accept a relationship with a guy when ur heart still thinking of another guy??? n i feel so funny in reading ur blog...u think u are living in those taiwanese drama ah???unrealistic...haihz...say so much also liao lat....

haihz...now its goin to 6 in da morning.....why m i still here....haihz...im a bit tired now..but cant sleep yet...if i go to bed now i would probably get up in another 5 min...haihz....sleep god ah...y u dun let me sleep???aikz.....

Finally it's over...

Uh huh...finally exam is over!! I can enjoy my 3 months holiday now!! But, wait!! i didnt do well in my Consumer Behaviour!! I have a feeling i will fail this subject!!! I just hope at least i could take the supplementary paper, at least i dun hv to retake this subject and extend another sem here.

Although i wish to stay here longer, to be with BH as long as i could. But i know it is irrational to do that as my sisters are carrying a big burden to send me here, and i've promised them to complete the degree within 1.5 years.

Initially i was planning to extend to 2 years, so i could apply PR here. But after discussion with my sisters and after living here for some time, i find it is difficult for me to survive in western country. If there is a chance for me to stay, of course i would put more effort to make it happen. However, usually reality is different from what you are dreaming of, so, DONT DAY DREAMING ANYMORE!!!

haihz...still got 1 week plus den i can go home d!!! quite excited actually..but cant see BH so often d..haihz...sad sad.....T.T

Anticipating....^^

Ahhhhhh...hate exams!!! How i wish the time could flies, AFAP, then i can go back to my home-sweet-home!!! Although still under great stress, but half of my heart had flew away..to somewhere with no exams and no books!!!

i have about 3 weeks to go b4 i can go home!! Can't wait for it, seriously!!
Keep thinking what do i need to buy home, what to buy for them, pity penniless girl..soBzz..
Sorry all friends n family if i din get u guys anything good. but for sure chocolate treat is on me!!

well, gotta go back to my books d...sigh...its another 'book-ing' day...

Don't wanna bother anything anymore...

Haihz, after so many things, i guess its time for me to grow la.
Don't wanna being so childish. Just let them be ba.
I don't care, it's not important.

From now on, its already not my matter, i won't care!

Now the most important is to prepare well for my exams.
I feel very happy to have my dar with me.
Make life simple, stay happy! :)

Is this what friends for??

Ever since i came to Tasmania, i never been so emo, or down like now before. I don't know what i should say. I just feel so speechless over the matter just happened these days. I don't know is it my problem? or i'm just being so unfortunate to make things happened?

Recently i recall what happened to me last year, when i was still in Disted. I had some problems with my course mates and at last i had to be alone and sort of being boycot. Fortunately i have my high school friends, which are also my best friends, also my family, to be with me whenever i needed. But now, i came here, Tassie, i thought it would be a new start for me stay away from those bad memory, get some new friends here, create a new network. however, i was wrong!

I really have no idea what had happened recently. we used to be in a big group of 12, but now its like separated into groups. The 10 of them had eventually mix very well and being very close. This is not anything bad. But i'm wondering why me n BH gotta being leave behind? Now they are friends, we are nothing!! When we bumped into each other, they just treated us like stranger. They even attended other friend's party and leave us behind. This seems unusual to me, but i guess they would feel happier without our existence. Maybe we are not valuable? or we are just being so 'unnecessary' in the group?

Human's heart is really unpredictable and scary. they often change without your acknowledgement. Nowadays i have keep myself in the room, not going anywhere if not necessary. I'm not gonna see those situation, however, i couldn't stop myself from thinking. that's why i'm here blogging again. I'm wondering how is the road trip gonna be if this situation remains.